Thursday, 23 February 2017

Loneliness

When I sit alone no body knows what I feel
When I was lonely
I was alone without anyone to love
With lonely heart
Lonely mind
With sadness
At my door step

A moment

I waited all my life
All my childhood
For that moment to come
The moment of being loved
The moment of being kiss
The moment of happiness but that moment never come
I am still waiting for that moment to come

Mental health and me

Today is my meeting with social services where they talk about my mental health and how it might affect my son . Today report go like this A.. acknowledged that her mental health issues may be impacting negatively on her son and has attempted to reduce this but protecting him. Looking at the note make me feel like they judge me but it not the case it seem bad to start with they write good points about me in the end.

My mental health is bad at the moment feeling low and out of this world most of the time, days seem like nights and nights look like day. I feel guilty that I have mental health issues but it's something that I cannot control . I feel that other seem me as a crazy person and don't want to be my friend . I would be wrong but that's how I see it and I get scared to say I have mental health issues. I think that other people shouldn't judge us but to take the time to get know the person not the illness.

I am trying to beat my mental health issues and recovery to become a book writer and to have my own business but have way to go yet to over come it